Second Post

Dear Future Mallory,

I had completely forgotten about this blog until tonight, and will most likely completely forget about again. Reading the beginning was quite comical due to the fact that I know who two of the A's are from Pretty Little Lairs and am now the driver of a Barlow Red Mercedes GLK350.. Haha. But reading on, I found just the reminder that I needed. See, at the moment life isn't going according to plan..at all. School has started back and I am still here... at my parents house...with no job... School may have prepared me for the work force, but it sure is heck didn't prepare me on how to get into zat work force.

It just stinks that nobody seems to want to give me a chance. Now, I am not one to toot my own horn whatsoever.. but I truly feel like I would make an extremely good employee. I mean, I work so hard on everything I do, Im good a solving problems, I....I don't know why I am wasting time telling you this because you already know.

Future Mallory.. As you probably already know.. Growing up is hard. I know everybody says that, but it doesn't really sink in until it's happening. Everything in life has always, in a way, been planned out. You grow up, go to school, then go to college. But the real world... that's when crap gets real. 


Right now I may be miserable, feeling pathetic, and spending my days laying around the house in my pjs, editing and watching The I.T. Crowd and Honey Boo Boo Child, but after reading the last post, I have to remember not to lose focus on what really matters. Yes, I would like to become rich and famous. Yes, I want the job to make all the mean girls from school jealous. But, I can't let myself be consumed by those wants. Because, in the long run.. it's meaningless. If I am not living in God's will, then I am not really living.. When this life is all gone.. And I see His face.. I don't want to stand there like "ahhh... my bad..I wish I did more." I want to be able to lay as many crowns as possible at His feet, because it is what He deserves.
So future Mallory, never lose sight of why you are really here. Jesus gave His life for you.. the least you can do is live for Him. He has such wonderful things planned for you, I just know it. Don't get discouraged. I promise...it will get better.. (that is if it hasn't already..(which, in this case.. I really really hope it has))




Well, I left you with a song last time..so I shall do it again...

"You will notice me
I'll be leaving my mark like initials carved
In an old oak tree, you wait and see

Maybe I'll write like Twain wrote
Maybe I'll paint like Van Gogh
Cure the common cold, I don't know
But I'm ready start 'cause I know in my heart

I wanna do something that matters, say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better with the time I've been given
I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less than something that says, I was here.

I will prove you wrong
If you think I'm all talk, you're in for a shock
'Cause this dream's too strong and before too long

Maybe I'll compose symphonies
Maybe I'll fight for world peace
'Cause I know it's my destiny
To leave more than a trace of myself in this place!

I wanna do something that matters, say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better with the time I've been given
I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
And leave nothing less than something that says, I was here.

And I know that I, I will do more than just pass through this life
I'll leave nothing less than something that says, I was here."


Future Mallory, I truly hope this entry finds you well.


Sincerely, 

Past (sad & lazy) Mallory


and ROLL TIDE!!!!

First Blog..

Life has been quite crazy for me this week, especially these last couple of days. I found out who one of the A’s are on Pretty Little Liars, Dr. Raimist has asked me to be the lead gaffer on the Shaq PSA shoot during honors week and to help train people in the pit for this upcoming amphitheater season, I went to the midnight premiere of The Hunger Games with Kristen and Allison and sat in the D-Box seats, had a fun talk about photography with Natalie my therapist, went to test drive cars with Dad, drove a Mercedes for the first time and had my life changed forever, drove a new pilot which was nice (but not as nice as the Mercedes), found out Dad was considering buying a Mercedes GLK 350, freaked out when I realized he meant this week, met an awesome couple at the antique store, and haggled for the first time.

All of a sudden, my life has seemed to kick into overdrive. Everything is happing so fast, when just a few days ago I felt stuck. This past Thursday in creativity class my professor talked about public and social obligations in the media field, and how we owe it to society to try to give back with our craft. Then he showed us a clip from a documentary called Eating Alabama that was made by a UA TCF professor. In the trailer, the guy talks about how this project started out as a something simple and then turned into something so much greater, so much bigger than he could have ever imagined, something that could possibly make a difference. It was at that moment that I knew that was what is going to happen to me. I can’t really explain it. I felt to overwhelmed, my mind was racing, my heart pounding. I have been asking God to help me understand what is up head. I keep getting scared of what lies in my future and right there in the classroom it was like He was reassuring me. He was letting me in enough to see that it is all going to be okay. I don’t know how, I don’t know when, and I don’t know what it will be. I just know that it is going to be okay because God has a plan for me that will be so wonderful, so beautiful that my little brain can’t even scratch at its surface right now.

So future Mallory, your wonderful mother sent you this song on Saturday. You cried like a little baby, because it was exactly what you tried to explain to her that Thursday about how you felt something so strong telling you that you were meant for so much more.

Here is it is.

"Whatever you're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but I believe

You're up to something bigger than me

Larger than life something heavenly."

Hope all is well.

Much Love,

Past Mallory